Blessed In An Unexpected Way

I've been meaning to post about this for quite awhile, but let's just say life has been over the top crazy lately and leave it at that.

Anyway, I know my last post was confusing, and a little sad which was exactly how I felt when I wrote it. However, a very unexpected blessing came from that experience. I'll try to explain in a way that makes sense even though I don't want to share the specifics in such a public forum. It comes down to this...

I found the blog of someone I used to know. In reading the blog, I found information that was painful for me to read. I was sad. And I wished I had never found the information. The blog wasn't easy to find, but once I found a little information, I just kept chasing it until I ended up with the whole story. In my last post I proposed the possibility that God keeps certain information from us to protect our feelings and keep us from hurting. And I really do believe that's true. If I hadn't actively sought the information, though difficult to find, I would never have known what happened to those people from my past and could have gone obliviously on with my life.

But here's where the unexpected blessing comes. I was hurt and felt regret for about a day. And then the most beautiful thing happened. Not only was I blessed with peace, but I was blessed with a level of closure that I had never had regarding that situation/those relationships. Once again I see that even when I do something dumb and bring pain upon myself, God still blesses me, loves me, and fixes the hurt. I am truly so blessed.